So…a few weeks ago my grandpa died. He died on a Tuesday and I saw him last the Friday before that day. The day before I went to visit him and my grandma I visited my other grandma and I thought about how I don’t have many pictures with her so maybe I should take a selfie with her. I decided against it in the end because I didn’t know how she would react and I thought it would be awkward. I still had that on my mind that Friday and I thought I should take a picture with them too, because you never know how much time you have left as morbid as that sounded to me, but, again, I decided against it because I thought they wouldn’t like that sort of thing, knowing how they react to other electronic things and such. So I didn’t take pictures with them…
Yesterday I went to visit my grandma just to hang out and help her out with some things. She seemed to be doing a lot better than the last time I saw her (at her husbands burial) and this time I told myself “I don’t care how she’ll react, I want to take a damn selfie with her” so I did and she thanked me. SHE FRIGGIN’ THANKED ME! Here I was imagining all the negative ways she would react and she thanked me! You really don’t know someone until you ask them what’s been on your mind or do something that’s been on your mind…that got me thinking that maybe my grandpa would have appreciated that too, maybe I could have caught him on one of those days where he was in a better mood and maybe he would have taken a goofy picture with me or even just a normal one (his resting face was kind of a grumpy face, but even that would have been nice), but no, I thought for him, I said “nah” and now I’ll never be able to take that mother-effing stupid selfie with him and I just keep tearing up over it. It will never happen now, it’s too late and I know it’s just a stupid selfie, but I can’t even remember the last time I took a picture with him and not just of him and now there will be no more pictures with him unless you count the one we took next to his freshly covered grave. I’m so sorry that I was so damn stupid Opa, I’m sorry I didn’t take more pictures with you: that I let what other family members think about pictures get in the way of what you might have really thought about them. I like taking pictures, but I felt afraid to take them because of what others thought about the “excessive” picture taking nature of us young tech-freaks, but I shouldn’t have cared. For me, memories are nice, but it’s also nice to have pictures to go along with them, they make it more fun to share and it would have been nice to have had a picture of our last time together. The next time I saw you you were hooked up to machines that were breathing for you, the last time I saw your eyes it was because you were having seizures from how long your brain had gone without oxygen after your heart stopped…I wish I had taken that damn picture when you were truly alive, when I could see your eyes smiling or even glaring would be preferred to that permanent picture I have in my head of them fluttering open with every attack on you brain.
If you even bothered to read this all I hope that you don’t make the same stupid mistakes that I did. You really never know when you’ll last see your loved ones and you really never know what they will like or not or what they will appreciate or not. Try to make sure your last image of them is a good one, not always possible, but you can try. Also, try to make sure your last words to them are good ones. I was lucky with Opa, my last words were goodbye, see you next time, and I love you. I was not as lucky with my dad…I don’t remember them exactly, but they definitely weren’t kind and I can’t take them back now either. Life is short, leave those you love on a good note, even if it’s just to say “bye, love you” as you or they leave. Or you’ll regret it like I do.
I love you Opa.
This is a great, unique little tool I found by browsing for writing resources. It’s name speaks for itself: it’s a synonym finder.
The site is clean cut, has soothing colors, and to-the point results for any word you look up.
For example, when I look up the word “romance,” I get this:
Synonyms: romance, romanticism
Definition: an exciting and mysterious quality (as of a heroic time or adventure)
Definition: an essential and distinguishing attribute of something or someone
Usage: the quality of mercy is not strained—Shakespeare”
I had no idea what a “hypernym” is. Apparently it’s a word with a more general meaning that a more specific word fall under. Like, color is a hypernym for green.
On the right corner there’s a button to make graphs! So you can trace each synonym from it’s root word, and see how far the other synonyms connect in comparison to others.
I really like it, so I’m going to definitely bookmark it on my writing tools list.
"PALESTINIAN GIRL, YOUNGEST DOCTOR IN THE WORLD"
"When someone enrols in the medicine school that one of the longest schooling required profession, by the time they finish school they will be around 30-or at least on their late 20s. But not for this girl; Eqbal Asa’d is a Palestinian Muslim woman that started the Medicine school when she was just 14 years old, ‘myhijab.info’ reports. Asa’d got her Bachelor degree in Medicine with Honors and was set by the Guinness World Records as the youngest doctor in the World, according to the report. She has been signed to go to Ohio, U.S to continue her education even further and become a Pediatrician." - Source
YOU GUYS SHE IS THE YOUNGEST DOCTOR IN THE WORLD. SHE IS A FEMALE, A MUSLIM AND A MINORITY. AND SHE IS THE YOUNGEST DOCTOR IN THE WORLD.
WHY ARE WE NOT HEARING MORE ABOUT HER?
you know why.
advantages to wearing oversized sweaters:
- instant cute outfit with minimal effort
- it enhances the coziness when u drink hot beverages
- sweater paws are guaranteed to make u feel 43% more adorable
- u can unbutton ur jeans and no one will know
disadvantages to wearing oversized sweaters:
Guys think they’re totally not cute lol
the day i dress for a man is the day they dress me in my coffin to see jesus